i am a woman.

a few months ago, the following poem was read to my mom's group at church - and it was beautifully powerful.  the words shook me up. 
and, on days like today, when i realize i've been walking around in public all morning with both spit-up and baby poo on my clothing, when the only thing i've done with my hair is let my 5 month old use it as a teething toy, when i wonder if i will make it through another round of 300 why's asked by my 3 year old in a 2 minute time span,  when someone asks me what i "do" and if i am "just" a stay-at-home-mom, and when i wonder why i am doing what i'm doing and if any of it truly matters....i need the reminder of words like these.  maybe you need these words today, too.

My willingness to carry life is the revenge, the antidote, the great rebuttal of every murder, every abortion, and every genocide.  I sustain humanity.  Deep inside me, life grows.  I am death's opposition.  I have pushed back the hands of darkness today.  I have caused there to be a weakening tremor among the ranks of those set on Earth's destruction.  Today a vibration that calls angels to attention echoed throughout time.  Our laughter threatened hell today.  I dined with the greats of God's army.  I made their meals and tied their shoes.  Today, I walked with greatness, and when they were tired I carried them.  I have poured myself out for the cause today. 
It is finally quiet, but life stirs inside of me.  Gaining strength, the pulse of life sends a constant reminder to both good and evil that I have yielded myself to Heaven and now carry its dream. 
No angel has ever had such a priviledge, nor any man.  I am humbled by the honor.  I am great with destiny.  I birth freedom fighters. 
In the great war, I am a leader of underground resistance.  I smile at the disguise of my troops, surrounded by a host of warriors, destiny swirling, invisible yet tangible, and the annointing to alter history.  Our footsteps marking land for conquest, we move undetected through the common places.  Today I was the barrier between evil and innocence.  I was the gate keeper, watching over the hope of mankind, and no intruder trespassed.  There is not an hour of day or night when I turn from my post. The fierceness of my love is unmatched on Earth. And because I smiled instead of frowned the world will know the power of grace.  Hope has feet, and it will run to the corners of the Earth, because I stood up against destruction.
I am a woman.  I am a mother.  I am the keeper and sustainer of life here on Earth. 
Heaven stands in honor of my mission.  No one else can carry my call.  I am the daughter of Eve. 
Eve has been redeemed. 
I am the opposition of death. 
I am a woman.

Woman by Christianna Maas   Copyright 2011